19 May 2010


I like Facebook, I really do. I probably spend way more time on there than I should, but it's fun to keep up with what's happening in everyone's lives. However, recently I kind of dread signing on. It seems like every time I read through the news feed someone else I know is engaged, married, or pregnant. I am happy for all my friends that are experiencing these wonderful life events, but I'll admit I'm jealous too. I'm kind of tired of seeing all the good things happening to everyone but me. That's not to say that my life is horrible. I have a good job and great friends. But I want more. I won't repeat my previous blogs as I've shared my thoughts more than once on my desire to be a wife and mom, but if you know me at all, you know that is the deepest desire of my heart. I'm going to be 28 here in a couple of months, which means only a couple of years until I hit the big 3-0, and I'm dreading it. I just thought I'd be settled, with a husband and a baby or two by the time I turn 30, and with each passing day, it becomes less and less likely. I know it can still happen, but I'm a realist and I'm good at figuring the odds, so while I'm not giving up on my dreams, I'm trying to prepare myself for what may be my reality. So to all my friends who are experiencing life to the fullest right now, I am happy for you, I just wish I had those events to share with you too.